Ayvah Nicole

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. Some things were wonderful and exciting and the most recent was tragic and emotional. 

Friday afternoon our dear friends delivered a beautiful baby girl named, Ayvah. She was only at 30 weeks gestation and was the size of a 25 week old. When she was delivered, she cried and was able to breathe almost entirely on her own, which was incredible news and gave everyone optimism for her prognosis. Sunday morning as I was getting ready to go visit my friend at the hospital, I got a call that all of baby Ayvah’s numbers were dropping (heart beat, blood pressure, etc.) and that the doctors concluded she would not make it. We, along with another close couple, rushed to the hospital to meet this tiny blessing. We walked in and saw our gracious friends loving on their new born baby. We hugged and kissed and cried and told, Ayvah that she was so loved. For such a tiny baby, there was such a huge amount of love in that room.

In my life I have not had to deal with very much pain and I have dealt with loss even less. It is the day after their loss and I am still unsure how to feel. I can’t imagine the feeling that the parents are going through and I can’t imagine having to leave a delivery room without your baby. For those that know me, know I am a very sensitive person so when I see others in pain, I hurt for them. I just want to hold them and hug them and tell them that someday it will all be alright and the pain won’t be so close to the surface. I want to comfort them in their time of grief but the only one who can truly do that is, Him. Luckily they know how loving and merciful God is and though it may not make sense, this is part of His  plan. They have been so gracious throughout this ordeal and I am so blessed and grateful I was able to meet their beautiful daughter. I pray that the Lord will guide them through their time of grief and comfort them during their sorrow. Please keep our friends in your prayers.